So… my partner and I broke up. After five years… we finally came to the realization (with the help of anti-depressants) that we were not a good couple. We got along fine, we thought the same on a lot of serious issues, we had the same taste in many hobbies and such… but we were not uplifting each other. We were not pushing each other to be better than who we were yesterday or five years ago. We’ve changed a bit regarding patience and communication but… both of us are lazy, depressed, and selfish. We try not to be but when we are both having a bad day it is just… a worse day or it does not get better for months on end because we just never helped each other where we needed it…
It is a good change, but a scary change. We got so comfortable being a mess, being lazy and selfish with each other that now… we HAVE to be better. For ourselves and for our futures. If we end up together again it will happen when we are ready and can handle an actual relationship.
Anyway with that depressing and sad stuff out of the way, I also have a good opportunity to go work at a gaming studio thanks to some connections! It is in California which is also another reason my path and my partner’s path are going different ways. They do not want to go to California whereas I really want to experience moving out of state. It is terrifying but … if I do not do it now while I am young, with someone who is willing to open the door to the gaming industry for me… I will regret it for the rest of my life.
So here goes nothing. I am working my butt off now to get some money together to pay off debts and make my way to California. . .
Wish me luck!